Taking Chances.

Do we automatically go into a relationship looking to fall in love? Or do some of us just see how it goes?

Well, what happens when it starts to fall apart and you’re no longer the ‘loving’ couple that you used to be? We get back up, after a few tubs of ice cream or whatever, and try to ‘fall’ again. Why do we do this to ourselves?

By the time trust has been established, you’ve already invested a lot of time and heart into this relationship. Yet, the probability is it’s just going to waste because not many things last anymore.

Ok, I’m being a bit cynical  To be fair love is the best feeling, nothing else matters and your just in this happy little ‘honeymoon’ bubble. Well guess that bubble always has to pop… which isn’t always a bad thing… not always.

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Another Night To Say Goodbye.

Going out tonight with two of my friends I’ve known since year 7. One of them I used to be so close with. I love them both. I know I’ve got more people to say goodbye to but this is a girl I thought I was in love with for 2 years, we had some weird friendship, never talked about anything serious – that was the deal. Until last weekend, she actually told me her opinion and the truth. But tonight we’re just going to get drunk (well for me tipsy) and the bus ride home should be interesting 🙂

Next week I’m taking one of my straight friends (who used to be homophobic) to a gay bar. Should be interesting how many butches try to take her home.

We’ve all said goodbye to eachother twice before at parties and stuff and it got a little emotional (one of our friends wrote us all thank you cards!) but now this weekend two are leaving and it is the final time. Next weekend more people move so really need to hurry up and say goodbye. Not allowed to get emotional!

Just a growing-up process, have to move on.

Social Interaction. Apparently Everything Counts.

Ok, I’ll admit I have gotten far too into my sociology book but it’s so interesting! I don’t think I’m reading the units for this year but hey-ho, I’m enjoy and learning (it actually is possible)

Is the facial expressions we do learned from others or is that just how we react?

At  first I would have said it was picked-up from other people. But apparently it’s not. There was a study of 6 born deaf and blind children who smiled, raised their eyebrows in surprise. So, how did they know that? How do we all know the right reaction/emotion?

Love reading this stuff!!! 😀

The Casual ‘Coming Out’

I’ve seen that alot of people have made a post about their coming out experience. Some of them were pretty harsh. But I did mine a little bit differently…

I had just come back from a trip to checkout a uni and obviously I was hungry, I wanted my damn kebab! I don’t know how the conversation with my mum got onto one of my (many) gay/lesbian friends, but it did. My mum just stated ‘yer, but she has no chance with you because you’re straight’

me: No i’m not *carries on walking, texting and listening to music*

Naturally my mum stopped, quite taken back by this casual revelation: …What?

Me: No, I’m not straight. Can we go get my kebab now? I’m really hungry.

Then she asked if I was seeing this girl that I kept talking about, which I was (and still am) and she was like ‘i thought you liked her’

EASY

Still never told my dad face to face. He knows, but still calls her my ‘friend’

BUT that was nothing to how I told my family… I text them all! Over a year into my relationship and I text them saying I was gay. Some of them pretend to be ok with it but bitch behind my back but one of my aunts phoned me! Most awkward conversation ever! But now all my family ask how she is and buy her chocolate bunnies, even offering for her to stay if I visit them. Not bad for a family that were raised to be strict Catholics 🙂

This is why I like casual conversations, no drama 😀

Feel Far Too Comfortable Around My Friends

This morning (about 10 minutes ago) I text my friend and woke her up – Oops. She replied ‘I’m still naked in bed’ just the image I wanted to kick-start the day, nakedness! But why do conversations like that always escalate? No wonder people always get the wrong idea of me and my friends.

The worst one is waking up next to you guy friend both half naked. Neither of us batted an eyelid. He even now remarks on my boobs ‘oh, they’ve gotten bigger!’ me: yours have gotten smaller, well done

No, he is not gay, we just feel really comfortable around each other.

We spoon each other, grope each other, undress in front of each other. So my question is: is it weird that me and my friends all do this or is it nice that we’re just that close?

Love Does Crazy Things

It changes you, in both a good and bad way.

My friends have told me that not only have I become ‘soft’, but also my girlfriend has managed to dehumanize me and basically reduce me from a strong person to one that is a ‘how high?’

So, if this is true, why the hell did I let her? It must be because I love her.

I know I’ve gotten ‘soft’ but that’s because at the start I just didn’t want to control a relationship again. But now, I realise I have become to much of a pushover. Don’t know how to change back but going to have to try.